Finding Hope

I have never been a really good big brother to you, and it still bothers me up until this day. I could have been, but my childish behavior back then made our relationship shaky. The day I realized how important you were was when the day we lost you, I couldn't bear the fact that you were gone and that the last time I was able to truly treat my little brother right was the last day I was going to see him, touch him and listen to him. That day you and Mamang left for you to be tested and diagnosed. You gave me a tight hug that day... one of the tightest I had. There have been sleepless nights when I blame myself, but I eventually snapback because I know you never wanted that to happen in the first place. It was not me, not anyone but it was Leukemia. Thanks to you I've become the person I am today, thanks to you I've overcome all the failures I've been through, and thanks to you that I've learned what a big brother should be like. I promise to make you proud and h...