Finding Hope

I've been thinking about how to create the best message for your birthday, but my mind is too occupied right now to write you one. And I would like to apologize for that. Thank you for bringing us into this world, for taking care of us when were still infants by showering us with love, and up until now we can still feel it --- the kind of love and care that only you can give. You were there for us when we were at our lowest, even though sometimes we don't share it to you. I feel bad for doing that, because you deserve to know how we felt when problems come in our way.  Just recently you called and told me that you noticed that there was something off about me, and right after telling me I immediately told you about all the things that's bothering me right now, your instinct surely is so strong. Back in August of last year, you also did that and I cried because I just have to let all of the emotional baggage out and towards you. It felt so...

This is the first time since April 14 that I started to write my entry, and for the past four months I've been through a lot of ups and downs. Let's go back to April when Rajh and I started working as a CE trainees under Dr Cabije, and I must say that I've learned a lot in the construction field after that short working experience. During this time we were also juggling our thesis project, so it was quite a challenge. Aside from the part-time job and our thesis, I also had the opportunity to be a part of the Mr. & Ms. PICEsiklaban pageant and had somehow won 1st Runner Up, the Best in Q&A, and some minor awards. The month of April was really a roller coaster ride, I enjoyed it but there were times where I wanted to scream out of frustration and stress. I welcomed the month of May with anxiousness and excitement. The thought of what would come next after we passed our thesis and celebrate our graduation made me very anxious, though the excitement of finally finishing...