I just got back from a very long writing hiatus!!

This is the first time since April 14 that I started to write my entry, and for the past four months I've been through a lot of ups and downs.

Let's go back to April when Rajh and I started working as a CE trainees under Dr Cabije, and I must say that I've learned a lot in the construction field after that short working experience. During this time we were also juggling our thesis project, so it was quite a challenge. Aside from the part-time job and our thesis, I also had the opportunity to be a part of the Mr. & Ms. PICEsiklaban pageant and had somehow won 1st Runner Up, the Best in Q&A, and some minor awards. The month of April was really a roller coaster ride, I enjoyed it but there were times where I wanted to scream out of frustration and stress.

I welcomed the month of May with anxiousness and excitement. The thought of what would come next after we passed our thesis and celebrate our graduation made me very anxious, though the excitement of finally finishing college balanced it all there were days when I would overthink and a lot of sleepless nights. Before the month ended I told my mother that I'd be enrolling in review classes for November Licensure Exam, and I was lucky enough that she agreed to let me take the classes even with the uncertainty of the board exam.

When the month of June came, I was really pumped up and inspired to really study hard just so that I can achieve a somewhat impossible dream, and that is to top the exam. I know I'm not intellectually capable of doing that, but I was confident that I can. I wanted to believe in myself, and I trust that my friends, and family would pray that I will and I know that they have given their faith in me.

I was starting to get really anxious again by the start of July, and I have forgotten about doing my daily journal entries. The review classes were starting to make me feel so depressed, but I'm glad that I have my family, my girlfriend, and my close friends who gave me the right amount of sanity to continue what I started. I also started a business, just so that I can have something to be busy about other than review classes. If you know me that well, I'm sure you'll agree that I can be a workaholic. I really wished that I had the same determination when it comes to my academics back in college. But I'm very much proud of myself for passing my exams in my review classes and balancing it with managing my small business, and having time for the people that matter to me. I've also had the chance to be cast in a short film during this time, and we're excited to let everyone watch it.

Fast forward to this day, I have been keeping track of my sanity. It's a bit hard at first but I've learned to cope up with all the stress, anxiety, and overthinking. Also, I'm now a member of a community-based organization, the Rotaract Club of Dumaguete and I just got inducted as Secretary (I guess it's a forte?). And for the past few weeks, I've been quite overwhelmed by the amount of support you guys have poured into my small business. Contrary to what others might say, I'm still focusing on my review. Though there are times when I need to get a breather to go out and relax. But I guess that's not a bad thing right?

I hope we all learn to take a step back when things get so uncertain and just learn to let ourselves heal from everything that's stopping us from moving on. We are all human beings and we deserve to take a time off and get back to our journey only when we're ready.